Writing prompt by Mama Kat
This week's prompt is:
Share one good thing you're looking forward to.
Oh my gosh, this is so easy for me... I'm looking forward to having this baby! Having the baby and recovering from the c-section, that is... kind of all rolled into one.
Because getting past that one period of time allows me to then be able to enjoy our new baby, play with him, learn how to juggle two small children, teach my first son how to help with the baby, hopefully I'll be able to breastfeed this time around, I want to start working on losing weight, getting rid of this really bad sciatica pain, enjoy not having to get up numerous times in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, get back behind the wheel of the van and drive (I don't fit anymore with the baby belly all up in the way,) get back on my fibro medication (well, after the breastfeeding, that is, if that part happens,) and, in general, do a lot of the things that I can't physically do right now.
Because of all the pain I'm in, I can't get down on the floor and play with my son because I can't get back up without help. The last time I got down on the floor to look for one of his toys, I almost wasn't able to get back up... and it took me a while and it was painful to do so. I can't bend over very well anymore because of the big ol' baby belly that's taken over my mid-section. I can barely reach the keyboard on the laptop! I have the laptop on my lap right now and my belly keeps me from having it too close and my arms are barely long enough to reach... and certainly not comfortably. (which is another reason why I haven't posted much lately, it's just not that easy anymore! LOL)
I don't get out of the house much anymore either, because I just hurt too much. When going to Wally World, I need to use one of the electric carts, because my hips and back hurt too much to walk very far. And that's totally embarrassing. I hate having to use one of those things. I don't know why. I suppose I shouldn't let my pride get the best of me like that, but honestly, I was hoping to not ever need one of those. My mother needed one and I just never wanted to get that bad, physically. So, I suppose I should take better care of myself, right?! But I don't and I guess that's one of the biggest reasons for me looking forward to having the baby and recovering from the surgery... Being able to get back into shape.
Well, getting into shape and becoming independent again. It's tough having to depend so heavily on others for help. Especially when I have always been such an independent person all throughout my life. And I look at other pregnant women (most of whom are a lot younger than I am, which doesn't help) and I see them taking Zumba classes or some other such crazy activity, some of them, you wouldn't even know they were pregnant except for the cute little bump of a belly because they just fly around doing everything they usually do without any problem, and I'm jealous and amazed that they can move so well.
But, no need crying over spilled milk, I suppose. It's done, I'm pregnant, and there's no going back, so the only thing I can do now is look forward to having the baby and recovering from the surgery. Then I can move on and work on the many other things that I'm so looking forward to doing... with my babies in tow!