Writer's Workshop: Depression

Writer’s Workshop

So, this week's prompt that I've chosen is:

5.) Sarah Silverman once gave an interview where she described her childhood depression as feeling homesick while at home. How would you describe it?

I have suffered from depression on and off my whole life, especially when I was a kid.  I clearly remember saying to myself, "I just want to go home!" and then I'd stop in mid-thought, thinking, why am I thinking this??  I AM at home.  I'm in my bedroom right now.  Why am I feeling this way?!

How can you want to go home when you are home?  That's such a strange thing to want.  But, when you're so unhappy, you just want to be away from wherever you are and be somewhere... better.

I think that feeling, that desire to "go home" while being at home continued on into my twenties when I was going through some really rough times.  I wasn't living a very good life and again found myself saying those words, "I just want to go home!"

Now, after many years of soul-searching, I've found that there is another "home" that I was probably subconsciously wanting to go to... Home with our Heavenly Father.  That is our true "home" and where we all need to be eventually. 

I know that may offend some people and may irritate others that I've put that into my blog and my answer for the writing exercise, but it's how I feel and what I've come to discover.  Maybe someone else out there is depressed and sitting in their house thinking that they "want to go home" too.  Maybe they'll read this and can realize why they're feeling that way.  Maybe not.  Either way, I feel comforted in the thought that there is a better home that I will someday go to.  One where my family and I will eventually be together and one where I will finally be back with my Heavenly Father once and for all. 

~Oddyssey